i think im gonna give hockey a pause now. I need to spend more time at home or the library with my NOtes and Books. Plus, there are many things that i need to work on. Essay and more essay. Plus all those extra readings. Come on Rad, u didnt buy it just for display and for it to collect dust. Make use of it to get ur As. Yeah man, A levels is really really important to me and its not that far now. Sigh. Tmr having Alevels Oral for Malay A. I hope im not gonna get myself into some shitty mess. Shit man, just now in class i cant even stop laughing when nothing was funny at all. Urgh! And for tha previous oral, i got only pass for it when all my other friends got distinction. Urgh. Ok. Hope to do perfectly well tmr. Malay A is my only hope, and if i missed this chance, i should might as well hang myself in front of the school gate. Ha

Gonna take a shower now and off i go for tutoring.

Ciao

Met up with Izzy yesterday at Jurong east library to do some Maths Assignment. Oh man, I felt so good after having done some questions from the TYS. Satisfaction. The day was not wasted just like that. Oh yeah baby. But anyway, the guy wasnt there at the Cafe. Kwa kwa kwa. Haha. Izzy came and as usual instead of focusing on the main purpose of the meeting, we would get distracted with all the hot gossips. Hah. Alot of things to talk abt after not meeting for a long long time. I hope the BBSS reunion is anytime soon. Sigh i miss those kids and those times.

Today, As soon as the last bell rang, i rushed out of the class and straight to the bus stop. Wanna know y? Becoz, i need to use the toilet urgently. I was like, "Quick, quick bloody bus driver. Fuck You. MOve away everyone!!, i need to Shittt!!! Argh!!" I havent berry berry for 3 days man. Hmm. Constipation. ANd my tummy is like bulging. Hell. I think im gonna try Faddy's Method later. Teh Susu. Urgh.

Went for a jog just now around the estate. Realised that i have gain some weight. ANd izzy noticed that too yesterday. And i like my face after running. So pinkish pinkish. Cute :S

Oh well, Singapore idol is On. CIao now.

A bad start to a brand new term. I woke up late and decided to just continue being in my fantasy Land. *tsk tsk tsk*

Did some Maths revision tho. So its kinda productive if u ask me.

Had nothing to do in the evening, so decided to go for the Scc Agm with Ain which i think we are not required to attend. What the hell, i was thinking, just go lor.. Be Xtras for awhile. Haha. Anyway, all the drinks paid by the club what.. Haha

So i better get to bed now, tho its quite early. DOnt wanna be late again tmr.

Ciao.

i dragged bf to CityHall to return the jerseys to the club. Watched "just my luck" after that. I think Lindsay Lohan is hot. But Chris pine is hotter. I think ive fallen for him. hmm. Ok the movie has a happy ending so i guess okay la kan. Dinner at delifrance after that. I think we walked alot.

ChrisPIne is Hottttttttttttttt. Aww

Esplanade was packed with Mats yesterday. I guess they were having some gig earlier that night. Gosh. i hate seing my own race going around the town in tux and tie in a very very humid weather. Urgh. Embarrassing for me. I think most of them are sucha wannabes.

This is random, but i think Mawi sucks. I dont know what girls see in him la. Da la botak, suare tak sedap, dont know how to dance pulak tu. Ha. Sorry Mawi's fans. I just have to let this out. Becoz what i think is true. Compared to Taufik, Taufik is hundred times better. ANd his songs so pathetic. Come on, Saleha? Haha. Kental siol the composition of the song. And he can sing only song that's composed by MNasir or similar to that. He cant carry modern songs well. U know like pop balada hip hop and all.. Disadvantage.

Im currently addicted to Heaven by Brian adams and when ur gone by Matchbox twenty. Thanks to Hady Mirza and Jon Singapore idol. I think Hady will go far. I hope so. And Joakim is cute. But i think his parents cuter. Muahaha. DId you see his parents jumping around and the father hugging the mother. haha. Cute.

School opens tmr. Sucks. GUess i cant go anywhere today. Becoz i need the whole day to arrange all my notes back. SO ya, you can guess the state of the notes right now.

This is not edited. The background nice hor. And i miss times like this, Just have fun with the girls and think of nothing else =)

Ciao.

Hey. Yeah time to blog. Though there's nothing really interesting to blog abt actually. Ha. So the mid year is finally over. Obviously, the last minute work is not working man. Even though i studied intensively for econs 3 days before the econs paper, i think that passing the paper would be a miracle for me. Haha. MCQ and the DRQ part were total hell for me. So out of point.

And because of her lack of discipline, Rad didnt manage to find the time at last minute to read the Geography notes. And ended up, watching the SIngapore Idol which was not worth watching at all. But i still could afford to waste my an hour becoz at that point of time, anything else is better than sitting in front of those Notesss with eyes that almost surrenderred. Sigh. I know this cant go on man. A levels is important to me. Yeah i know that. Yet y cant this mind work with the body?? Urgh i hate this man. At the end of the day, i dont want to waste time without earning anything, i dont want to waste my parents money which they have invested on my education. Andmost importantly, i dont want to waste my parents dream.

I dont know whats gonna happen to me in the future. Somebody pls help me. Im so insecure that i really need somebody to constantly motivate me man. Then i feel abit better. And sadly, being with him doesnt help. Sigh. Im back with my insecure self. Urgh! Fuck you Rad, stop having negative thoughts!! Come on, dont take relationship at this level seriously ok Rad. Its not worth it. Coz anything can happen. Ha. Im just being on the safe side. i dont want to be too involved in it u know. i'd rather take things slow. Urgh. Its well said but its not always the case really.

I dont know y am i so attracted to find out abt her. She's attractive. If i were a guy, i would date her. Haha. But dont worry, im not turning lesbian or anything. Im still straight. Haha. ANd sadly, she's not what i used to think abt her. But yeah, there are many people out there. Many people with weird lifestyle. So yeah, interesting to know. Haha. But nowadays, ive been looking at pretty girls too.. Its nice to observe how people behave. Interesting.

And i just hate it when somebody knock on the door when im sleeping. FUck her la. Now, becoz of that, im in bad mood. DOnt come near me coz i might just get pissed at little things or nothing at all. Urgh. Period.

im so tired of the same thing over and over and over again u know. Y cant u just be straight forward with me instead of keeping everything inside and hoping that i would know what the hell is wrong. And stop showing your fucking attitude man. U dont want to talk to me, just say "get lost" and dont have to lie and pretend that ur actually sleeping. It hurts me more when ur not being honest. Bah. Im getting bored with this. But history has taught me to be patient. So here i am trying very hard not to let my emotion on its own solve the situation. Sometimes, its just so difficult for me to define "us". Ha.

Y is everybody talking abt World Cup. Come on, to me, thats the most boring topic ever and forever (except for the fact that there are lottttt of cute guys.)

Since all ive been doing for the last few days was to mug and mug, now i feel like i have no life man. Serious. Come on, there's more things to do out there. End this torture immediately pls!! Bored.

i spent my weekends mugging with Faddy. From morning to late afternoon. Motivated man. Yeah so not like Rad right. But yeah man, im starting to get worried now. And escaping the mid year by getting an mc is not going to solve any of my problems. I want my dreams to come through. And to ensure long term success i need to work from now and face this mid year first. Sadly, its tmr.

i start my day with a hockey game. Took a cold cold shower after that and now im ready to continue with my mugging. Hehe.

2 days to mid year first paper! ARgh! Move aside, Rad needs to move like a ROad RUnner now. Im in desperate state. So no time to waste. Ciao.

im home from a super boring shopping at Johore with my mom, sisters, auntie and cousins (whom im not close with). The aunty really annoying. At first i didnt know that she'd b coming along. If i could have known earlier, urgh, serious man, i rather stay at home. Nothing to lose. Couldnt make up her bloody mind. And i am pretty sure that all the shopkeepers were pissed with her nonsense. Come on, she stayed abt 1 hour just at one shop just to make up her bloody mind on whether she should buy or not? Or is this nice or that one nice? Is this original or not? Ugh. The bad part, everybody had to wait. I regret joining them for the super super super boring shopping. The most wasteful day in history. Should have just stayed at home with Dad and read some Notes. ANyway, im so glad that im home now.

My body is so damn tired. And yeah, my leg got hit during the game this morning. Blue patch at the side. 8 games every morning man. No joke this is really tiring. But fun!

And i was hoping to go straight to bed, but too bad, i just realised 5 minutes ago that my dirty laundry was still in the bag and i need to wear the skirt tmr morning. So im waiting for the washing machine to stop while blogging now. Urgh

Actually im like struggling with my revision now. Im sooo far from follwing the time table. And im left with less than a week before the mid year, thats next week. And i have many chapters and sub topics to cover still.

Urgh.

Hey just got back from a game at Delta. Tired. But yeah at least i have the rest of the day to relax at home. So i was just clearing my mail. Alot of junks i must say. Haha. All the forwarded emails. Usually, i would just delete them but i dunno what happen to me today, too bored i guess, decided to read those emails. Yeah there's this personality test. AMazing how accurate the results turn out to be. Not all but yeah, most of it.


And there's another 3 questions on the relationship part. Which i choose to skip. Becoz i disagree with the results!! Yay! The personality test results can be amazing sometimes though some, hafta admit are just wasting time. Actually makes one think, and know themselves better and do some soul searching. Ha

K till next time. Gotta ciao now and get some sleep. Alot of notes to cover for revision tonight. Have a nice day!

i woke up as early as 6am today. Yeah thats not normal for Rad. But yeah, i thought that itd be possible for me to have breakfast with bf. The last time we met before today was 5 days ago? Yeah man, really miss that guy alot. Sooo Instead of wasting time in bed, i decided to just spend some time with bf. We met up at ard 8. The most busiet time. Once in a while im not following the crowd, its kinda nice feeling u know. Make u just wanna laugh at them. Ha. But serious man, looking at the people moving just make me go crazy. Headache. Dont know how the hell i cope with it every morning to school man. Oh well, nvm, it wont be for long. I hope.

So me and bf spent some quality time together. Haha. I use the word "quality" becoz usually, when when we go out, its always pointless. Dont know where to go so we will aimlessly walk. So we toured the cck neighbourhood. Play some arcade. Pool. Breakfast. Yeah. I realised that i cant even lift my own weight. And coach said im fat! Urgh. Oh well, me rushed for training later after meeting with bf. Tiring one. In fact i just reached home and im super dead right now. But the stomach just wont stop making noises. Waiting for my dinner to be ready. So in the meantime, me just blog shit. Haha. ok so tmr first match against the crescentian. Is that how we spell it? Err.. wat the hell, I dont care. GOtta go and get some rest.

Tadaa~

There's nothing to blog abt actually. I told you its the weather that makes me just too lazy to move my butt outta house. The cool cool weather just makes me wanna chill at home u know. Just read the Notes on Role of Government. Chat with sisters. Just sit in front of the tv set for hours. Disney Channel. MTv. Cartoon Network... Munching anything that could be found in the kitchen. Ive been eating too much and running too little that im so afraid that id put on some meat. SIgh. Hope to gain some power to overcome the inertia and squeeze some sweat out later. Since the weather doesnt allow me to run the track at Gombak Stadium, probably will visit the gym. Oh well, at the same time can scan for some hunks. Heehee

Today is quite a pretty fast one. I guess thats becoz i woke up like almost noon? Haha. So only left with another abt 12 hours. Come on, its holiday. I cant do that when the school term starts again. And the weather is terrific!! Rain rain rain.. I love it. Perfect for slacking. Haha. Ok so i went to school today for the hockey "meeting". I reached school like abt 1 hour earlier. *dang* Unexpectedly, me saw Dana in the canteen. She was waiting for the Maths makeup lesson for those who missed it in the morning due to the Gp common test. So i was thinking, wat the hell, since i missed it too, might as well just join them. And yeah at least i learn something and didnt waste time like the previous days.

So the new committee for the JJ hockey. Hehe. Captain - Phebe. Oh well, this one is expected. She got almost 100% vote. Perhaps 99.8% yeah. And the Vice-captain is now Patricia. Oh man. The J1s was expecting Sharon to be the Vp. Since this voting process is confidential. And i was involved in the counting of votes, i shall not reveal any statistic. Pretty amazing actually. Keep me wonder y. Haha. Ok now let me share something. Since its only me, the minority, what i think definately wont change the vote. But actually i wanted to vote for Su for the Vp post since i think she is an experience player and in fact she can communicate well with the team mates. But she is not my choice in the last minute. U wanna know y? Becoz she was late. She only came when everything else is abt to end. And supposedly, the J1s were having self training after that meeting. But she left instead becoz of some reason which i choose not to believe.
Haha. Seriously man, I think that she is not someone who can commit. And punctuality is far from her.

I just hope the best for JJ Hockey.

hey wassup. Rad is back with a brand new blog. Decided to delete the previous one. For no reason though. So in this blog, i'll be writing abt the things abt me, the summary of what i do, and a little bit abt my personal life. Yeah boring. REally boring. But to those kpos out there, who have nothing better to do but blog hop, and read abt ppl, this is for you. At some point of time, some posts will somehow reflect some of my weaknesses, my happy moments, some confusion, me being a little bit sappy. Thats just how it goes man. Life is soo complicated.But one thing to take note though. This is my blog. A place for me to express my thoughts, my feelings and my experiences. And to look how, as the years go by, me developing into a more mature and sensible person :P So this is all abt me. Just a humble soul with a simple life. Really.

To start off, lets have an introduction and get to know a little bit abt the blogger. Yeah thats me. I am 18. Currently studying in the neightbourhood jc in the west. I play hockey. Not very good. But at least i enjoy the game. It feels kinda good just to get sweaty a little bit after trainings u know. Gotta meet some new ppl. Im taking A levels this year. Hope to score good marks so that i can continue studies at NUS or overseas. Actually sometimes i feel tired living in Singapore u know. Ive been to every place. Every corner. Every inch. So not really that exciting already. But well, Singapore is still my home. Love to be here with my friends and family. I just need to experience a little change, thats all. And sometimes change can be a good exposure and to get ppl to start thinking and not always take things for granted, u know what i mean.

And so obviously, i havent been following the "study timetable" that ive created. Urgh. Yeah a very bad point abt me. No SDSM. Haha. No self motivation, No self discipline. that sucks. A levels is not far away and to finally realise that i have lot lot lot more of chapters to read, thats so worrying. Oh god oh god. Pls help me get through this.

Sometimes its sad to see how ppl develop into the person u never expect them to be. A bad person i mean. Oh well. Told you, Life is so complicated. And so the ppl is also just so unpredictable. But hey, u make me think and realise that the real world is not as what i used to picture in my head. Its not always so beautiful. Its not always sunshine and colourful butterflies and chirpy birds in the garden of nice smelling flowers. The world changes.

I managed to catch The Omen 666 with boyfriend. Out of 5 popcorns, i give it 4! Yeah its really that good. Oh well at least to me. Im just wondering when will they come out with The Omen 2. 06-06-3006?? Oh hell thats crazy. im dead by then. and hey, and i dont think there's a big screen theatre in the Pusara Abadi man. ANyway, i dont think the world will live that long either. Oh shit i hate talking abt things related to death. Haha. The thought of it scares me shit.

Im going for training tonight. U-18 tournament is just next week. And yeah i think i just cant skip tonights training since we're only left with 2 trainings before the first match. Scc win. And yeah, World Cup first match tmr.

I go. Bye bye for now :)