Im so fragile right now. A lvl is nearing. Trying really hard to study, but it seems so hard to get those shit into this bloody head. Urgh. Father having problem at his workplace. Unsupportive parents. Siblings really annoying. Every little things they do just pissed me off. I'd rather not talk to anyone in this house. It just gonna make the situation worse. Better be on my own.Girlfriends busy with their own stuff. Missing the days when we used to spend time together. Sweet. Missing the past right now. Its kinda distracting. Im so bored of the environment im in now. Im so sick of my boring daily routine. Boyfriend rather useless. I find it really stupid actually. It just feels different right now. Maybe im just his pastime, and even if he did contact me, its like hours after. Dont really know what am i to him actually. Come and go. Ha, boys. And dont blame me for not trusting what he say, becoz his actions say a totally different thing. Urgh, its not my fault that im being insecure or whatever. Im tired of msging him actually. I see no point when i sense no interest. Met him yesterday for dinner, so he told me that most prob that he would be gg to the US, and cancel his PR here. i guess he never thought about how i'd feel before he said those stuff. Yeah, its kinda obvious now that to him, i dont really exist. So what the fuck am i still with him, when i know obviously that one day, very soon, he'd leave me. Urgh. So sick thinking actually. Its a good thing that i have Sang in school. She's the one who can actually tahan my rantings.. im feeling so not right now. Urgh. Fuck everything ah.