I went to school just for freaking few minutes. Urgh. Flag raising thats it. Pointless. Since im so awake right now and cant go back to sleep let me just do the little survey yeah Hazirah.

**All answers from the bottom of my heart.. (Anyway Haz, is this the title of the survey?)

Q1 Single, taken, crushing?
Ans: Taken baby

Q2 Are you happy with your life now?
Ans: No one has a perfect life eh? But yeah, im happy that i have great family members and friends. I have so many dreams baby. I need to make them come thru! And sometimes it just feels incomplete inside.

Q3 When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
Ans: No. It takes time for me to trust someone. But if he's hot, then perhaps maybe ;)

Q4 Have you ever had your heart broken?
Ans: Duh. i felt like punching and kicking and pinching and.. somebody at that moment of time

Q5 Do you believe that there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Ans: Not acceptable. Its a terrible feeling to know that ur bf is going out with other girls.

Q6 Have u ever talked about marriage with another before?
Ans: Kwaannng kwanng kwang. No. Its a really funny topic to talk abt. Toooo far ahead, pointless.

Q7 Would you ever consider adoption?
Ans: Yeah, i love babies. I want to adopt one from Europe. One from India. One from Middle east. One from China. One from japan. One from Africa. One from.. I cant possibly go to all these countries and marry the guys there right.. Kwang kwang kwang.

Q8 If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
Ans: Errmm.. Ask me out for a nice romantic dinner, buy me presents.. Take me to the beach.. Take me out for shopping.. Buy me this.. buy me that.. Wakkaka. Nah, just be straight forward uh.

Q9 Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
Ans: Sometimes No.

Q10 Be honest, what is the furthest thing that you and you ex did?
Ans: I wasnt even serious with my ex. Come on, u cant use ur imagination and figure out.

Q11 Do you believe in love at first sight?
Ans: Yeah if the guy is really hot. Burning hot.

Q12 Are you romantic?
Ans: No. Sweet maybe?

Q13 Do you believe you can change someone?
Ans: Nope i dont have that power baby

Q14 If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
Ans: In a castle :P

Q15 Do you give in easily when u are fighting?
Ans: i will try to but most of the time, Nope :) Stubborn kid.

Q16 Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Ans: yeah. I wonder if he has feelings for me too.. errmmm..

Q17 Have you broken a heart?
Ans: i guess. Not on purpose. Sorrry

Q18 If one day, your best friend falls in love with the person u are deeply on love with, what will you do??
Ans: What the fuck? She should know my feelings for the guy, so why did she do that?? Stupid idiot bastard fucking shit bitch. If that guy like her too, then i wish their relationship a disaster! Muahahaha!!

Q19 Are you missing someone right now?
Ans: Yeah actually im missing a few.

Now you have to ask 5 of ur friends to do this survey in their blogs. Write their names down :
-Rai
-Izyan
-Yeek
-Grace

Hey girls, if youre busy, Dont bother. Muahaha :)

Do you remember the days u spent ur golden coins on photo sticker, Neoprints or whatever its called? And with all those stoopid poses? Wakaka. Now there is a way, to do it without a cent! Ask us how!!

Haha. TIll next time girls..

Lova ya

Friday means nothing now. I used to look forward to the weekend, bcoz then, weekend=Rock the town. Ha, but not anymore, its like the normal days where i would just stay in my room and yeah.. u know. Aha. Not doing something to personally entertain myself guys. But STUDY! Urgh.. Boring. Im a nerd. Im a nerd. Im a nerd. Any guys out there interested to date a beautiful hot but nerdy chick here. Wakaka. Shameless. No paper today. PLanned to burn some fats in the morning, but the weather didnt allow me to do that. ANd so slack at home, and watched the repeat of RockstarSUpernova. Im in love with Toby's original song. Very cool. And i think i fancy guys with round and bald head. They look sexy. aha. And its sad to see teenagers my age ending their lives doing stupid things u know. Ok thats totally out of point.

Anyway, i think that teenagers nowadays grow up faster than they should be. Not only those i see in the television but Looking at my little cousins, make me feel like im the younger one. Hell, they know more than me in some areas. But obviously their thinking dont mature like how they look on the outside. They dare to take risk without using their brain. Sometimes i wonder if they have one. But watsup with playing the Spirit of Coin or The Choking Game. What pleasure they get, i dont know. Man, those troubles that could happen to them and the family could be damaging. And the consequence of The Choking Game is fatal. Cheap cheap thrill man. Im saying all this after observing my cousins, most of them are in the growing stage. Puberty. And the discovery i made while in my aunt's house that day was surprising. Ha, I found a notebook, with alot of porn stuff written in it. And the siblings are way underage to know much about those stuff. It makes me kinda guilty for not doing anything about it. AAha. I hope they dont engage in those stuff that was in the notebook becoz obviously, i think they are way too young for it.

When i was their age, i was still soo slenger, Wearing super long skirt and and went to school with little attention about how my hair look. ha Kids nowadays. ANd one of the girls told me that a primary school girl was caught having sex with a lower sec guy in a community centre. Oh my god. I bet the girl just had not more than 10 cycle of period. Kids. We are asian man. Im not trying to sound conservative or what la. .But to me, its all about moral and how people are brought up. U go out in public, having sex wherever u feel like it, oh my god. Yeah i know, we are human being and most of people out there have an open mindset about this issue. Personally, i can tolerate this but at least give a little bit of privacy to it and respect to the people around. Not in a community centre. Bleagh. Kids.

If u notice, i dont write much about my bgr now as compared to the last blog yeah? Aha, thats because, First, there's nothing interesting to talk about. And second, i dont want to be seen as one of the girls out there who cant live without a guy. I try very much to keep everything calm and control myself so that i wont been seen as weak u know. But yeah, sometimes it just doesnt work. Anyway, that bastard didnt contact me since last week after the "no" msg i sent him. Chill Rad. Watever.

Able to catch some of the BDO Hockey World Cup matches on SUpersport. India not as impressive as i thought. But still powerful. Match Korea against Germany was boring. Hah. Anyway, theres this pakistani player, he's hot.

k ciao now. Till next time.

Hey its been awhile yeah, let me just take a few minutes and update this beutiful blog. Aha. K basically, ive been doing nothing much but mugging. Boring~ Yeah my september holiday was burnt too. Its not like im hardworking or what la, but... im left with freaking 50 days before the A level damn it! So yeah, still hafta do it man. Still hafta do it. I dont want at the end of the day, me regretting and finding it a waste of two years in j.college( in the first place it wasnt even my choice to be here after O lvls) And so, If i get good grades for the A levels then at least i get something u see, and move on from there. Rather than giving up half way and try to turn to something else right. Started it, Rad gotta finish it nicely too. YEAH. I keep reminding myself, to take everything at my own pace. Well, i learn better without pressure i guess. ANd power of visualizing is not day dreaming. No no.

Hockey match is on tv. haha. Men match, Korea against India. Great players. And hafta say, i miss playing with that stick and ball. The more ppl the better. Thats the basic theory man. Aha. Wanted to join the ladies for training but, i guess studies come first yeah? ANyway, i kinda feel awkward too after Joanna and Nurul and Cuimin left the club. The ppl there are nice, but i dont know, its just weird. I miss the pitch. I miss JJ hockey girls. I miss the game(even though we lost a lot) and yeah, i miss the coach too. I dont think im still that fit to chase after that small little white balls. Aha.

I cant do the many things i enjoy doing as often now. I feel something pushing me hard down to my seat. And with all that distraction, studying is hard. YEAH. And if the result still suck, i dont know what to say baby. *Shakes head*

And im way tooo slow to say this, but Tom cruise's daughter is cuuuteee.. I dont really like the mother though. aha. The baby has lots lots of hair! and cute, like me. Aha. Suri nice name too.

Ok i guess im done for now, will get my power nap before start preparing for the bloody maths paper tmr. Boring~

Me had a great weekend. After a long time, i paused the mugging for awhile and took a short break. Went out with the girls for a gig at Arts House. Some bands were quite good. But the metal hardcore got me crazy after a while. Just not my taste. Ha. The crowd was crazy too. Mosh till injured themselves. Nose bleeding. urgh. Lucky i didnt get in the crowd. Anyway, it was so crazy that i dont think i can even get into the centre and would probably fall just by standing at the edge. Ha, and so me and the girls chose to just get comfortable at one corner and just enjoy the music. Looking at the girls got pushed and slammed on the floor one by one just felt sooo OUCh..

My childhood friend performed. I dont think he can still remember me and so decided not to say 'hi'. Paise jer. And he's cute.. Hmm. The last band was in a quite sad state. There were less than 20 people in the room. Ha, Sad. So we walked to esplanade and we realised that the band there was better. Could have saved 7 bucks if we just chill at the esplanade. Haha. Had our dinner at Marina. Not really dinner la, i had popiah. It was superb. waited for iZyan to get on a cab before we got home. After much of the waiting and vulgarities in public which lasted for at least half an hour, finally Ijan senget called the cab and in just 5 minutes we waved goodbye. Kan senang sikit.

Errmm. Sunday went to Orchard. Hafta say that there is no where in Sngapore that i havent been. Urgh. So boring. Its always back to the same place. After lunch and watched "the devil wears prada", we went to Esplanade. Yeah man, again that place. But this time with different person. Wakaka. ANd time passed really fast. uhuh uhuh. The bright moon was out and its time to go home before the mother hen start the nagging shit.

So the fun is over now. Back to business and the mugging. Studying alone feels like shit. Sometimes, have to end up talking to myself. Urgh, I went to school this morning to do some studying but after about 4 hours in the canteen, i got bored and decided to have my lunch.. and now, im at home in front of the computer. HAhahaha. Oh my, thats not in the plan for today. Urgh!! ANybody wanna study with me tonight??? wakakak :)

KK better go now. Discipline Rad!!!

Hey its teachers day! and September holiday! Whoooooooohoooo. Dont have to be up early for school. Isnt that just great. Anyway, JJ has set a new Record for the largest mass yoga display. Whooooohooo.. Went to Bbss yesterday. Not really to meet the teachers, but rather meet my girlfriends! Wkakaka. Every edge and corner of the school, have its own story. wakaka. Memories. Sweet and some bitter ones. Ive been spending alot of my money on food nowadays. Been eating alot and little of the running. Everybody is complaining about their bulging tummy. Urgh. And Izyan look better now with the weight that she gain. I can see your figure now babe! Not as flat. Shake that booty. Wakaka. Just need to tone it up a little bit. And we shall do that together alright??!! Lets work it babe. Wakaka

Talking with the girls yesterday, make me a stronger person. Haha. Boys are just too selfish and they never even bother to consider our feelings. And those typical and outdated excuses that they are giving just deserve to be in the rubbish bin waiting to be burn or something like that. Hmph. The finger pointing must always stop at me. And what the fuck, im treating him bad? Just look at his response whenever i asked. So he doesnt want any reply from me becoz im making the situation worse huh. Wow. Thats kinda hard for me to swallow. Just fuck off. This argument is useless. Becoz obviously, with this kind of communication difficulty, this relationship is meaningless as far as im concern. Girls i love you. Wa respect sama lu. Your opinions and advices make me think for awhile. hahha, its not like i havent been using my brain all this while but yeah, i like the way u girls think. Thanks alot.

Pictures taken from simple-kinda-lyf and junkofhearts respectively =)

suhweeet

Prelim is just next week! Sweet. Obviously, the September holiday is gone for me. ANd gonna be difficult for me to update this blog as often too. ANyway, somebody is asking me to go steady with him. But like duh, im not really interested in Mats u know. Urgh. And he calling me everyday just pissed me off. Just get the signal and go away can? Im mean.