oh, the weather is really pissing me off. Plus, my days have been super boring. After Sahur, i would try to get as much revision done. About 30 minutes interval, i would here voice from the kitchen :

Radhiyah, Tolong mak cuci pinggan ni sekejap!! or Radhiyah, Tolong bilas kain ni skejap!! or Radhiyah, tolong mak buat kuih ni!! or Radhiyah, tolong pergi pasar!!

Direct translation: Radhiyah, help me do the dishes! Radhiyah, help me do the laundry! Radhiyah, help me with this cookies! Radhiyah, help me go to the market!

Oh man, u get the idea. Even thou it can get really irritating sometimes, i shouldnt complain too much becoz my dad is not rich to get a maid and pushing everything to my mother is unfair la. Even tho, she's really hardworking but sometimes i think should just give her a break la.

And becoz of my bro, my mother is suspicious of everything i do now. I cant even go out often. And she thinks that Orchard Road is all bad. Typical makcik's mindset? Come on man, i just go there to meet some friends. And so where am i suppose to go then, just stay at home? Just study? Thats just too boring mannnn. Urgh. Had a really big quarrel with mom that day becoz she wouldnt even let me go to Bugis. ANd im not a kid. Urgh but im guessing all this happen becoz of my bro. Well, to a certain extent. Becoz everytime she lectures me, she would say something about my bro, which is sooo not related. Sometimes i feel that she's saying things that are not meant for me. Urgh. Best solution, shut up!!

My bro is cozing so much trouble man. He could at least inform my mother when he went overseas. He left home for days and keep my mother waiting. She even went to his workplace to ask about him. Urgh, macam anak setan siol. Pardon me man, i know its fasting month but everything has to go out. i cant take this anymore. And my mom has been quite sick and disturb latelybecoz of him. She even said that she couldnt even get good sleep becoz she's been thnking about my bro. U know, if i could have just one wish, i hope i could just kick his bloody faggot face, until his face gets distorted, i dont care. My mother prays for his well being all the time, and this is hw he treats her *Yak dushh* My mother just cares too much, cant blame her

Urgh. And i guess now, all i need to do is just stay at home and shut up! Coz i dont want to say much looking at the situation my mother is already in now, becoz that might worsen the situation. im not saying im a terrific fantastic daughter la kan. i know ive made my mom worried (yeah, she gets worried very easily) but at least i know how to look after my own self. And i dont do bad stuff outside =)

Ok enough about my bro, mother and family alright. Anyway, ive been working out, trying to get some abs man. oh yeah. Went to the gym in the morning. Very bad actually, i cant even remember the last time i ran. Hockey training is cancelled. Urgh, been awhile since i went for training, becoz of school shit u know. Now that school is done, i thought i could push the notes to one side for awhile and get my hands back on the stick but nah, very bad weather.Urgh. I was all excited man. bleagh.

Random stuff, im so in love with this guy from Bring it on:all or nothing. Awww.. His name is ...something Carr. ha, i dont care about the name u know, he's just so hot. Ok Rad, enough, nanti batal puase :P

Just a story that i want to share. Somebody emailed this to me, very drama-mama but to a certain extent, the story makes me sad. ha :

Boy: baby we need to talk

Girl: kyle, wat do u mean?

Boy: sumthin has come up...

Girl: wat? Wuts wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: i dont want to hurt u baby

Girl: *thinks* omg i hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much

Boy: baby are you there??

Girl: yea im here wut is so important??

Boy: im not sure if i should say

Girl: well u already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: im leaving....

Girl: baby wut are u talking about?? I dont want u to leave me, i love you

Boy: not like that, i mean im moving far away

Girl: why? All of ur famliy lives over here.

Boy: well my father is sending me away to a boarding skool far away.

Girl: i cant believe this.

[FATHER: (picks up the other phone, interrupts &> yells furiously) ERiKA, wat did i tell you about talking to boys?!!!!!....Get off the damn phone!! (And hangs up)]

Boy: wow ur father sounds really mad

Girl: u know how he gets, but anywayz i dont want you to go

Boy: would you run away with me?

Girl: baby, u know i would, i would do anything for u, but i cant... U dont know wut would happen if i did. My dad would kill me !!

Boy: *sad* its ok i understand i guess..

Girl: *thinking* i cant believe wuts going on

Boy: i need to give u sumthing 2nite b/c i am leaving on flight 1-80 in tha morning, so i need to see you now.

Girl: ok i will sneak out & meet u at tha park

Boy: ok ill meet u there in 20min

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives her a note.]

Boy: here u go, this is for you i gotta go.

Girl: *tear* (begins to cry)

Boy: baby dont cry, u know i love you...but i have 2 go

Girl: ok (begins to walk away)

[They both go back home. And erika begins toread tha letter he gave her]

It says.....> > Erika,U probably already know that im leaving, i knew this would be better if i wrote a letter explaining tha truth about how much i care about you. The truth is, is that i never loved you, i hated you so much, u are my bitch and dont u ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around u. U really have no clue how much i hate you. Now that im leaving i thought u should know that i hate you bitch, u never did tha right thing, and u were never there. I didnt think i could hate someone as much as i hate you. And i never want to see you, for the rest of my life, i will never miss kissing you like before, i never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and thats a promise. U never had my love, and i want you to remember that. Bitch u keep this letter bcuz this may be tha last thing u have from me. I hate you so much. i will not talk to you soon bitch....> Goodbye - Kyle>

[ erika begins to cry, she throws tha paper in tha garbage & cries for hours ]

....A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely.... Then she gets a fone call....

Friend: how are u feeling?

Girl: i just cant believe this happend i thought he loved me.

Friend: o, about that. Kyle left me a msg. A few days ago. He told me to tell u to look in ur jacket pocket or something...

Girl: ummm ok

[She finds a piece of paper in tha jacket, It says..

Baby i hope u find this before u read my letter. I knew ur dad might read it, so i switched a few words... Hate = Love Never = Alwayz Bitch = Baby Will not= will ........I hope u didnt take that seriously because i love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats y i wanted u to run away with me... -Kyle

Girl: omg its a letter, Kyle does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I cant believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol ok but i g2g... Call me later

Girl: *happy*ok bye, i'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me !!

...... Erika turns tha T.V. on......

[Breaking news]

"An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for Survivors...This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80...it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." Reporter says.

[ she turns off the tv....3 days later, she kills herself, because of tha fact that Kyle was dead & she had nothing to Live for... ]

....A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Kyle, he called to leave a msg.

"Its Kyle, i guess ur not home so, I called to let u know that im alive, i missed my flight b/c i had 2 see u one last time. So i hope ur not worried. I am staying for good. Sorry if u got scared, i promise to make it up to you everything will be a be ok i love you so much...call me asap bye!

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