Its been awhile since i got on the pitch. I hope to get back for training tonight and hopefully register myself for the U21 tournament on Jan-Feb. I may not be good for the team but at least i want to have that chance. I miss playing hockey. Besides i want to get myself occupied with stuff. I hope that will help. I want to clean myself from this shit as soon as possible. I need to get on my feet and move on. Ive tried getting myself up and everytime i do that, i slipped and get smack down on the ground again and again. I need support. I need strength. I need to rescue myself. Im gona do this. I cant just sing myself a lullaby and hope that things would get better. This cant go on.

Im gonna register for driving license as soon as i get my pay. It might be next week or next month. Im not sure. But i am so looking forward for my pay. Haha. Ive worked for only 2 weeks and im already talking about my pay. haa.. I need to get fresh. I am not soo fortunate la.. My parents dont give me cash for shopping so i need to earn myself. Well at least it teaches me how to be independent and not like some fucked up Prince and Princesses like some people i know, just spending their parents dollar like a running tap water. ANyway, i feel paiseh everytime i ask my parents for money la.

ANyway, i need to prepare myself for PromNight. Wahahhahahahaha! And get myself a partner? :P By the way, i lost weight!! Yay! By more than 3 kg. Im amazed. If u wanna lose weight, ask ur bf/gf to leave you. Then all u'd do is run, not eat much, become a smoke machine, get busy or sleep, and snap, its already the next day! Wakakaka! JUst kidding, bad advice. Do not try that at Home. The truth is, its painful hell.

Urgh, how long is this gonna take. Went for some run at CCk yesterday. 15 rounds haa.. On the way home, i saw him at LOT1. Didnt want to show my face after all the insults. Urgh. Come on Rad, He hates everything about you. Everything you do just make him so angry. He hates you. Ur a retard. So why is it so difficult to get over him? Hate him back?

Feel the music guys.. Haa.. SOrry for the sad sad post, making myself weak. WTF. I dont need a boy baby. I dont need a boy. Im off from work form today till thurs. Who could have thought that this would happen yeah? Gotta find something else to do to distract myself from this fucked up sadness the moment i wake up. How long is it to take to get over this shit? I wonder.

It was raining yesterday so we end up playing pool and Xbox for hours when the initial plan was to run. Ha.. Pasrah dok.. So today, watever it is, me gg to run after which gonna go ECP for some blading. Blade. Blade. Blade. Urgh. I will try to avoid that sensitve spot. Haa..

This post most probably not gg to make any sense. Just a chunk of hopeless words. Words thats squeezing my heart and slashing my wrist. The only reason im typing this is becoz, maybe it couold clean the shit off me. Becoz all i have been smelling from yesterday was some dogshit that i dont know where it was from. If you know what i mean. the messed up thoughts and the messed up situation im in now. So anyway, yesterday was the most useless night of all. Suppose to finish work early, but decided to drop by peninsula plaza to get some stuff. I missed a few busstops and wasted much time walking back, just to realise that the shop was closed. Fuck. It was only 8 plus. After that went to lot 1 to get back my stuff from Shane. Yeah, thats when the truth came. And it was killing me. I dont know. I knew it was coming but i wasnt ready to face it. He wanted to say it, i walked away. Went to get my dinner, sat there for about half an hour, i just couldnt eat anything. Waited till the clock strike 12, hoping that we could talk things out and not just straight to that devastating decision. Oh well guys, now u will see no more Rad and Shane. We are done. No more us spending time at the beach. No more gg out for movies. No more gg out for dinner. No more. We're not even friends anymore becoz thats just wat he want. No reason for the breakup tho. I wish he could be a little more man like i thought he would be. But too bad he's still running around with saggy diapers and Milkbottle. The truth is, he has been cheating on me all these while. I dont know whats up with that. Watsup with the soft toy. Watsup will the "i miss you" shiit. He never liked me. Great. How can i take that. I wouldnt feel this terrible if we were to seperate nicely. End it off with some communication. Im not sounding desperate or anything. it came so suddenly. No point doing everything to make him stay. Let him go. Just go and never turn back. Its just impossible that he will lick back something he just spat on the ground. Even tho he did before, [ermm, he even literally spat on me.. Ha, how can i just forget that day] that will never happen again. Urgh its 7.30am. Dont know if i had gotten my sleep. The day i rejected TheHulk was the day i got dumped. How sad is that. Im feeling so fucked up. Todays gonna be a mess. Maybe visit the running track later. Urgh. This is just not right.

RAmen Ten was our dinner. U know, the Waiter and waitresses shouting, "greeting" the customers in Japanese just pissed me off.

Relax. Wat can i say, A levels O-V-E-R!!!

This one ah, i was trying to be artistic in my shot. work? hmm

Izzy and with her special earing. Haha, that earing gave me a great shock la when we were at mrs Fields.

This background looks like a scene from HARRY POTTER. Hmm

Forever-attached-together.

Next week gonna be a really busy week for me. Gonna go for chalet from Monday till Wednesday. And for the rest of the week, work. Well, i guess reality is not always beautiful.

Ciao

The little dancers in their cute outfit.

Them in action. The Chubby girl dancing with great enthusiasm in the middle attracted most of the attention

Introducing the Real bellyDancer, THE B-O-N-C-H-Y-E-T

She may be big, but really really nice to hug =)

Looking Sexy with the Glitter Butterfly Tattoo :S

Opposite attract.

ANyway, im starting part time work tomorrow. At Cathay Cineleisure Orchard. Not really the cinema part. But Emax gaming. Hahahah

Im going to sit for maths paper today, maths paper sucks. Maths=sucks. Identities. Wakaka. Yay yay. Dicrete Random Variable and all those shit. Y the fuck we study that for???? Wakaka. Oh well, im just gonna think about the stuff im gonna do after As.. *evil*Haha, 'daydreaming' abt it actually keeps me entertain abit during the long hours of mugging. Visualizing is great, u get what you want, can do whatever u want. ANd yeah, not to forget dreaming abt Cristiano ROnaldo and Travis, so you think you can dance?, they are hot. WHen brought back to reality, i just thought that i needed to date a dancer. Haha, maybe. Later.