This post most probably not gg to make any sense. Just a chunk of hopeless words. Words thats squeezing my heart and slashing my wrist. The only reason im typing this is becoz, maybe it couold clean the shit off me. Becoz all i have been smelling from yesterday was some dogshit that i dont know where it was from. If you know what i mean. the messed up thoughts and the messed up situation im in now. So anyway, yesterday was the most useless night of all. Suppose to finish work early, but decided to drop by peninsula plaza to get some stuff. I missed a few busstops and wasted much time walking back, just to realise that the shop was closed. Fuck. It was only 8 plus. After that went to lot 1 to get back my stuff from Shane. Yeah, thats when the truth came. And it was killing me. I dont know. I knew it was coming but i wasnt ready to face it. He wanted to say it, i walked away. Went to get my dinner, sat there for about half an hour, i just couldnt eat anything. Waited till the clock strike 12, hoping that we could talk things out and not just straight to that devastating decision. Oh well guys, now u will see no more Rad and Shane. We are done. No more us spending time at the beach. No more gg out for movies. No more gg out for dinner. No more. We're not even friends anymore becoz thats just wat he want. No reason for the breakup tho. I wish he could be a little more man like i thought he would be. But too bad he's still running around with saggy diapers and Milkbottle. The truth is, he has been cheating on me all these while. I dont know whats up with that. Watsup with the soft toy. Watsup will the "i miss you" shiit. He never liked me. Great. How can i take that. I wouldnt feel this terrible if we were to seperate nicely. End it off with some communication. Im not sounding desperate or anything. it came so suddenly. No point doing everything to make him stay. Let him go. Just go and never turn back. Its just impossible that he will lick back something he just spat on the ground. Even tho he did before, [ermm, he even literally spat on me.. Ha, how can i just forget that day] that will never happen again. Urgh its 7.30am. Dont know if i had gotten my sleep. The day i rejected TheHulk was the day i got dumped. How sad is that. Im feeling so fucked up. Todays gonna be a mess. Maybe visit the running track later. Urgh. This is just not right.